What do you want?

I don't know that I've ever gone this long without posting something here, especially since I've been incredibly busy with amazing things worth sharing! However, this isn't really going to be much of anything, because I'm just stopping by to post something I wrote months ago that I found on my phone.

I was in Colorado and it was cold and I was missing my people and my places and my life in Berkeley very much. I was trading emails with a dear friend who wrote, rather frankly, "Well, Case, what do you want?" And I didn't respond with these words in that email, but I wrote them in response to that question and just kept them.

I just want to make a venti gin and tonic and get a sunburn in the Dels courtyard while Paul messes around on the guitar and Maria and Gretchen just laugh and laugh until Tony finally comes down the stairs with his kindle and "does homework" alongside us.

I just want to walk to the bus stop and ride to the GTU and scarf Urbann Turbann before the wind cools it off and then jaywalk to Brewed Awakening for not good coffee or pretty good tea but most importantly a place to sit and cram reading before class begins. And then hike up the slope to CDSP, backpack lurching, for another bouncing Jerome Baggett 'Religion and Politics in the United States' lecture.

I just want to swing by Fellini for a beautiful vanilla soy latte even though I'm already late, and then drive up the Grizzly Peak switchbacks because mishing straight up Marin is bad for my car even though it's the only way I'd come close to making it to 8am class, listening to music at full volume, trying to dance myself alive, awake, alert, enthusiastic.

I just want to crack open a Downtown Brown and BBQ in the courtyard until it gets cold enough to go get a sweatshirt but also maybe shoes would have helped in the first place because the asphalt is so rough but it's fine, just hop hop hop.

That's all.