Spent literally the whole day working on my room. Put books on the new shelves, clothes in the new dresser, and tackled the behemoth which is my desk. For the last two years, things have been piling on my desk with no intention of ever going anywhere. I spent hours today going through the piles of papers and books and just...things! It was really unbelievable. What was funniest about the whole process was finding my old journals and a lot of old photographs. I have to admit I spent an hour reading journals from junior and senior year of high school. It's unbelievable how many of the entries and problems center around people I don't even speak to anymore. There are pages and pages cataloguing drama with Hayden, Casey, Gibby, Jenny...it's really hard for me to read. I wish I could have known then that now, none of that shit matters. And then I look at things that go on today and wonder if they're going to be those non-issues in a few years. But are they? Or are they the ones worth fighting for? It's an age-old dilemma for me, really.
But the best part was how happy most of it was. High school was brilliant and I had a fabulous time. There are so many entries about how much fun I was having with Nick, Tom, Fletcher, Vean, Jimmy, Shaun, Clay, Dory, Evan, Hayden, Richelle, Cory, Eric, Lauren, Nick, Lily...it was really a great time. It was nice to revisit all of those moments, knowing that I wasn't exaggerating any part of it. It really did rule that hard.
One thing I wrote was that I think that Tom and I are going to be friends forever. I'd like to say that's still something I hold on to. And there are so many days of "today I didn't really do much except hang out with Fletcher...but I'd say that's a pretty good day no matter what." Hahaha sometimes things don't really change at all. A day with Fletch still sounds like a pretty good day no matter what. And there's so much hilarious stuff about Nick and Tom's crazy antics, and all the mischief we got into without ever really getting into any trouble. Those are some good boys right there. I feel a little better about life today.
But the best part was how happy most of it was. High school was brilliant and I had a fabulous time. There are so many entries about how much fun I was having with Nick, Tom, Fletcher, Vean, Jimmy, Shaun, Clay, Dory, Evan, Hayden, Richelle, Cory, Eric, Lauren, Nick, Lily...it was really a great time. It was nice to revisit all of those moments, knowing that I wasn't exaggerating any part of it. It really did rule that hard.
One thing I wrote was that I think that Tom and I are going to be friends forever. I'd like to say that's still something I hold on to. And there are so many days of "today I didn't really do much except hang out with Fletcher...but I'd say that's a pretty good day no matter what." Hahaha sometimes things don't really change at all. A day with Fletch still sounds like a pretty good day no matter what. And there's so much hilarious stuff about Nick and Tom's crazy antics, and all the mischief we got into without ever really getting into any trouble. Those are some good boys right there. I feel a little better about life today.